Welcome to a snapshot into my mind! This is a compilation of both my useless and substantial thoughts. This is a place where I can express my thoughts, new hobbies or interests I am picking up, or even new mindset shifts. I also hope that it can become a place where I express new things that I have learned, such as history, God, books, and various new topics. I hope you enjoy getting a sneak peek into my brain, lol. Prepare for this page to be flooded, frequently informal, and fun.
One of the most beneficial implementations in my daily journey has been reflection. Reflecting on my childhood, my relationships, my friendships, the relationship I have with myself, my habits, etc. The more I reflect within and the more grace I give to myself, the easier it is for me to give grace and compassion to others. Reflection has allowed me to increase my self-love, and I plan to continue down this path.
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I've recently had a major revelation about myself, and I can thank Professor Smith, my therapist, my mother, and God for that. I never realized how much of my day I spend going, going, going. I never realized how my body is always in a rush and how eager it is to move so fast. This realization I had that I needed to slow down has already changed my life so much.
Here you'll find less important or thought-provoking thoughts, lol. This is where I will store daily random thoughts that really provide no purpose or substance, as I do in the real world. This is my space to let things out without feeling like I am bothering anyone else. This will likely be the most filled area of my blogs.
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I love journaling and reflection. I like to write away my whole life and do a deep dive on who I am and why I am the way that I am, but sometimes I get so caught up in reflection that I forget to take action. So that is what I am focused on doing now. Taking action and making well-needed changes. I already have all the tools that I need, even though I so often think that I need outside help. I know what I need to do now I just need to do it. I get scared and a little defeated when I think about how little I know, or how many areas I need to grow in, but in reality I should be excited about all the possibility. Life has so many things to offer and imagine how boring it would be if you already knew how to do everything. If you actually became a pro at everything you wanted to be a pro at, what would that leave life as? Same with decisions. After watching so many videos and feeling guilt over past mistakes, I thought about how boring life would be if I got everything I ever wanted without having to overcome some challenge. If I made every correct decision and I never had to experience any heartbreak or suffering. Sure the suffering can be a lot, but we become much stronger after we snap back from it. The hard times and the shortcomings are what allow us to feel gratitude in the first place. If we are always happy, we'll never know what it feels like to be without it. Those times of hardship, those times when we just want to cry, teach us to appreciate those moments where we feel joy.
I am currently at the airport, and I am reflecting on how awful my airport backpack options are lol. One backpack is too saggy and takes up so much space, even if I have hardly anything in it, and my other backpack is so tiny and rigid. It's a pain to get things out of it, and because it's so small, even the tiniest things take up all the space. I definitely need a new airport bag and to get TSA Pre-Check. I set up my appointment, and I either didn't have all the documents, or I didn't feel like going lol. I fly so much, I might as well get it. In other news, I got an A- on my oral final for my English class, and I am so happy. I think the argument I made was well thought out, and I am proud of the connections I made between the texts. I definitely think I learned a lot in this class, and I grew so much. Not only in how I critically analyze texts, but as a person. I've learned to slow down, and to reflect on how too much of anything can be harmful. Genuinely so grateful for all my professors this semester, and for the classes that I took. I grew in so many ways this semester, and I hope that I continue to grow into next semester, but also that I carry on what I learned. It's also going to be a new year, so it's definitely time to develop new skills and habits, and let go of old ones. I am pleased with the level of engagement I've had with this website, and I plan to continue doing so. This has been an amazing outlet for me, and so has journaling. I am glad that I brought that back because it helps to calm my countless thoughts. I just want to continue being intentional with how I spend my time, who I spend my time with, and what I indulge in. I found a new peace in myself this semester, and I've learned more about myself and what I like. I learned I like greenery and the outdoors more than I thought. I learned that I really like classical literature, even if I don't always understand it, and that there are Classics Book Clubs near Los Angeles. (Currently on a hunt to find some closer than 40 minutes lol). I might do a virtual one, but I don't think it has the same impact. I learned that I can have a lot of fun on my own and that I really do enjoy my own company. I realized how much energy and time I have when I am not mindlessly scrolling on social media. I am learning how much my daily routine impacts my mood. Whether or not I make my bed, or put on a cute outfit and jewelry makes a world of difference. I learned that I can still feel confident with my natural hair and in my bare face; I just need to see myself this way more. I want to continue pouring into myself and the things that make me happy. Given this is the only life I get to live, I need to make the most out of it. Thank you for this semester for all that you have taught me. I'm going to send thank you emails to my professors now and use the bathroom before my flight, lol, but I'm looking forward to what the coming weeks will bring. Until next time!
The song I am by Lil Baby and Gunna is truly amazing. I might need to get "Anything came in my way came from God" tatted on me. I also lowkey wanna get "rallentare" or "lenta" tatted on me. It means slow down in Italian as a tribute to my english class that changed me in many ways. Rallentare isn't that pretty but it has meaning. I am thinking on the under-side of my wrist on my right hand. I wonder how bad it'll hurt though..
I want to start being consistent with this website and changing the elements to be my own. That also requires me to take more photos, so I will get on that lol. I used to be a great writer in middle school, but I don't know what happened lol. I want to start watching videos, reading more books, and maybe taking a Coursera course so I can improve my writing skills.
As they say, life is a journey, not a destination. I feel as though, almost every other week, I learn new things about myself and absorb new perspectives. I learn more about why I view things the way I do, or even why others view things the way they do. Prepare to learn about these new mindset shifts here.
2025 is officially over. It was a long, yet insightful, year. I learned a LOT about myself as a person, like how I exist in this world, why I exist the way that I do, what kind of people I gravitate towards, etc. This year was one of the most insightful years yet, and ironically, I didn't go into the year hoping for a big transformation. In fact, I had little to no expectations about 2025. I want to go into 2026 the same year. In my family, we never make a big deal about the New Year, and we still don't. I do participate in some superstitious activities like not entering the New Year with a dirty house/room and not washing your clothes on New Year's Day, but I try not to make a big fuss about changing into a new person just because the date changes. I simply view my goals and objectives as things I want to accomplish in the upcoming months. I'd like to thank TikTok and my support system for some of the mindset shifts I had this year. I'd like to thank journaling for all the epiphanies I had this year. I'd like to thank my therapist for reminding me that I deserve to be treated the same way that I treat others: with respect, love, and patience. I'm still learning more about myself each day, but I can't wait to see the growth that develops in the coming weeks. <3
My goal is to build my relationship with God and to be a better representation of him. During dark periods of my life, I questioned if God was even real or if Heaven was a mindset. As time has passed, I have started to realize that I don't need to know all the specifics about my religion or any religion for that matter. All that matters is that the religion I follow aligns with my values and will make me a better person. And I truly believe following the word of God will do so. I think everyone can take scriptures or teachings from each religion that will make them a better person.
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